Here I was 23 years old at the most exciting night of my life . I was being baptised into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints . I loved it , all went well and I was on a high as I returned home .

 I was a single parent of a 4 year old girl , had come out of a violent relationship 4 years previously and thought the LDS Church with its strong family values was a good way to bring up my daughter and give some order to my life .

 It was great everyone was my friend unless I was being reprimanded for wearing trousers in church :- Catching two buses and waiting for one of them for 30 mins in freezing cold weather in winter was not exactly brilliant conditions for wearing a skirt .

 It was great until I developed Myxodoema and Vertigo and could not fulfil my callings , then all I received was disdain .

 It was great when I married my husband , everyone rallied round to help . It was great that the love of Christ was in my life and I had finally banished Satan from my life , so I had been taught .

 The Book of Mormon was great , until I realised there was very little truth there .

  I began to feel depressed and like a lot of future ex-mormons still tried to carry on . My husband however began to dislike the connection between the LDS and the Masons , thus making the LDS a business as far as he was concerned . This troubled me because I knew I was getting ready to leave the church and the final leap seemed to be so hard to do and there was part of me that didn't want to let go , the main question being , what will happen to me and my family if I leave ?

 I explored everything , I had come to a point where I was going to be a miserable LDS for the rest of my life or, I was going to take that final dreaded leap . In one afternoon I found something that changed my life .

 I logged on to my Stake Web Site .

 What I saw filled my heart with dread and my brain with a huge YIPPEE ! The Stake Web Site advertised certain jobs , such as Media positions , publicity for the BOM , and described itself as the LDS Corporation :- A business . I then logged on to the Salt Lake Temple Website and saw that Temple Clothing Clothes worn in the Temple( as opposed to those worn for specific ceremonies) , far from being sacred were there in full view displayed in the same way as any ordinary catalogue .

 This had the same effect as the blindness being taken from my eyes , I then looked around at anti-Mormon sites which a lot were just aggressive and din't really have anything to say .

 Then I found this site , here , and devoured everything , everyone had to say and found that I was in the same position as a lot of people . Ready to leave LDS but not quite sure how to go about it Through sites like this one my husband and myself composed a letter , taking advice from pre-set resignation letters posted on the internet . We sent the letter and two months later we were ex- Mormons . This happened this year on the 22nd of February .

 So did my house fall down , our marriage fail , were we destined for hell . No !

 My husband was promoted twice , my son is extremely bright and doing very well at school . I have made lots of new friends most of whom are Pagans, as am I now . I used to be on 3 anti-depressants a day I am now on 1 , my social life is hectic just how I like it and I get to help others who are in the same situation I was and can completely understand their problems and difficulties .

 But what about the Main Man , Jesus Christ . I love him still , as I love God , as I love all Gods and Goddesses and healers and those who seek peace for this world and humanity . I love all learning , genuine learning, and genuine knowledge not made up stuff that seeks to limit the individual spirit and depress the soul . And I look forward to the day when my spirit returns to the Summerlands to await reincarnation . Who knows I may be the next Cher !

 All I can say to those who are scared of leaving the LDS, remember always, your life is your own .

 Love and Light to all .

 Blessed be .