I find myself cornered in the last refuge I can find in the church, the Primary. But now I have to teach the children the Book of Mormon stories and its the final stand down I suppose. There are a trillion conflicting feelings racing in my head. I've been standing on shaky ground telling myself that there isn't a better organization.  All of my five children have made such good choices: They don't delve into any of the evils that so many teens find themselves trapped in. My youngest is twelve and was just ordained. There is safety in the church. Is there anywhere else? Some of you are angry. I know that I should be angry for things that have happened to my family. I have felt that if I just stand strong then things will get better.

How do I know for sure? How do I know who is telling the truth?  Did God instruct church leaders not to give the priesthood to the black people? Did God the Father tell him that all the churches on the earth were an abomination? If the book of mormon is not true then how can there be so much good in the church? As I read your comments I wonder who is telling the truth.  Have any of you found another church where you feel safe and at peace? I wonder what it would be like to attend church and breathe deeply. I wonder what it would be like to speak freely without being afraid. And I wonder if stepping outside the church could be the worst step I ever take.

I don't care who did what to whom in present time. People make huge blunders. I do, however, care about the doctrine. If the BofM is false then how on earth did he write something so complex.

I don't want to know about anger or resentment. I just want to find the truth.