Where I just "left" last week the process has been going on for years. I was a convert mainly because the man I loved was a member. I had no idea what the Mormon church was and I honestly thought it was just another church when I joined. They really do not give you any info. I had a difficult marriage but before I figured out why I had 4 kids and there was no way I was going to go to sleep at night and not have my kids in my house let alone in a house with a new "mother." When I finally saw the book of Abraham video I "knew" the church was not true. What a huge relief, I could not stop smiling. I was so excited to show my TBM husband, I thought for sure he would join me. I was shocked to find he already knew about it and still believed JS "translated" the BoA let alone the BoM. Well, I am someone who can not lie, I could not continue teaching 3 year olds this lie and I went to my bishop. I was positively glowing as I informed him of my "burning in the bosom" testimony about JS. He looked like his father just died or something. He tried to tell me it was not from God but I have every feeling every member had borne their testimony about. He tired the "aren't you aftraid..." I cut him off and said absolutely not, I "know" and he had no answer except to tell me not to share my testimony with any members. I thought, "aren't we supposed to bear our testimony?" I told him I would not lie. The hardest part is now trying to save my children. I love them more than anything and do not want them brainwashed into a sad life of "NO" and isolation. My oldest breaks my heart the most, he wants his dad to love him but already feels he is "not good enough." I know he would do anything to get his father's approval. But he also is very close to me and I know I can save him. I will say, it is promising that my husband has said he wants his children to be critical thinkers and make their own choices. I hope he lives that line. Any discussion on how to save your children and how to get your spouse to see the light would be greatly appreciated. Finally, "awake"