Hi...well let me explain why i have named my user name “Blacksheep” all my life i was treated unfairly..
 
1) My biological father abandoned me so others would tease me and call me “unwanted 

 

2) When my mother remarried my step family didnt accept me because i wasnt related by blood. so i was constantly treated like a “black sheep”

 

3) The third reason why my name is black sheep is the same reason that i have decided to create an account on this website.

 

I fell in love with a mormon boy and he loves me back; he is indeed a wonderful man. I love him so very much… I met his family (btw im not mormon) and they treated me so kindly and i fell in love with them… I felt like “FINALLY SOMEONE ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT ME AND WANTS TO BE MY FAMILY!” I was so happy and i even had tears of joy..

 

As months went by and he and i were falling deeper in love his father kept asking if he was going to go on this mission… he said no because he loves me and never wants to leave me.. =)
so when i thought his father finally gave up.. i was wrong.. as they say; “if you cant persuade

someone that wont listen to you, persuade someone that he will listen to..”

 

so he did and i fell for it.. i went to see missionaries, they where very nice.. and i was even more happy! and as his father predicted i asked my boyfriend; “maybe you should go on your mission. cause we cant be together after highschool that would be a sin. and i want to get baptized and marry in the temple.”

 

he would wait but he absolutly did not want to leave me to go on his mission. so we tried to be good and live life with no sin… but my heart was torn between what i wanted and what i  THOUGHT  was right..

 

I choose to not wait and when his father realized this plan had failed he kept persisting.. but yet i was still BLIND to what was going on… I was to busy wanting what i never had… a family..

recent events started happening and secerets was unrolling and i finally realized a couple days ago....      THEY WHERE USING ME! THEY DIDNT LOVE ME, CARE FOR ME, INFACT THEY WANTED MY BOYFRIEND AND I TO BREAK UP! WHY? CAUSE I WASNT MORMON! I WASNT GOOD ENOUGH!
this hurt me so much i was crying! i felt used and betrayed! my boyfriend was filled with rage when he found out…

 

“it hurt me to realize that the lamb; i thought was my friend, ended up being a wolf in disguise...”

 

there is more to my story… but first i would like a friend who has experienced what i have felt… cause right now i feel alone..