puff
4th January 2006, 11:30 PM
I have learnt a lot of interesting things on post mo , such as
cognitive disonance ( beliefs that fight against each other )
phsyco systematic disorder ( mentaly stressed to the point were physical symtoms appear in the body ) and many other things which have been so helpfull
its only when i go back to tscc for a brief visit or talk to people still in it that i realize how far i have progressed .
I am standing alone on my own two feet , i,m facing god all by myself , and thats how it should be , i,m making decisions based on what i can see as being realities ,
i am accepting life one day at a time , i am no longer stressed out of my mind or living with this rejection complex that there is something wrong with me for not fitting into a caustic religeous programme , its been a long journey but finaly i am feeling happy inside again , i have realized something about myself , if i am not free , i am never happy ,
most of all , i am enjoying seeing life for what it is , a mystery spanning billions of years , sometimes i sit for long moments and soak that up , its a special and unique , what a pity i wasted 30 years living in a mental hell hole , one good thing about it tho , i least now i apreciate what mental freedom is
cognitive disonance ( beliefs that fight against each other )
phsyco systematic disorder ( mentaly stressed to the point were physical symtoms appear in the body ) and many other things which have been so helpfull
its only when i go back to tscc for a brief visit or talk to people still in it that i realize how far i have progressed .
I am standing alone on my own two feet , i,m facing god all by myself , and thats how it should be , i,m making decisions based on what i can see as being realities ,
i am accepting life one day at a time , i am no longer stressed out of my mind or living with this rejection complex that there is something wrong with me for not fitting into a caustic religeous programme , its been a long journey but finaly i am feeling happy inside again , i have realized something about myself , if i am not free , i am never happy ,
most of all , i am enjoying seeing life for what it is , a mystery spanning billions of years , sometimes i sit for long moments and soak that up , its a special and unique , what a pity i wasted 30 years living in a mental hell hole , one good thing about it tho , i least now i apreciate what mental freedom is