silverfox
8th January 2005, 10:05 AM
I have had about 4 serious bouts of inactivity over my 30+ years as a member but I always went back. I knew something was wrong but I bought into not doing everything right or good enough so I always went back.
I never felt truly comfortable in church in spite of several leadership callings, "friends", etc. The only time I truly felt comfortable in church was last month when I attended sacrament meeting as a Post Mo to witness my granddaughter being blessed. I knew it was all a lie and I absolutely had no feelings of guilt, regret, resentment, etc. I was only there to support my Daughter. It was important to her that I be there. I left right after the blessing. The best part I walked out with my head held high and such a strong sense of freedom.
I never felt truly comfortable in church in spite of several leadership callings, "friends", etc. The only time I truly felt comfortable in church was last month when I attended sacrament meeting as a Post Mo to witness my granddaughter being blessed. I knew it was all a lie and I absolutely had no feelings of guilt, regret, resentment, etc. I was only there to support my Daughter. It was important to her that I be there. I left right after the blessing. The best part I walked out with my head held high and such a strong sense of freedom.